[It isn't. Twisted as it is, he would've preferred to have been sold in bits and pieces, to leave a trail for his Bonded to follow. All the pain the Rathmores inflicted on him could be easier borne if Andersen knew it had resulted in something tangible, something a little more hopeful.]
For crying out loud! All their swagger about making a fortune off of us, and they don't even bother to put me on the stands! If they were going to mangle my legs, the least they could do was sell the product!
[He complains, because spinning the experience into a story changes it -- allows him to be more in control.]
Did I tell you about one of the Rathmore brats who kept pestering me? [He pitches his voice high and mocking.] "Oh, what beautiful scales, I best be careful with tearing them off." And what did he do with them in the end? Nothing, it seems like! Nothing at all! What a waste!
[he's quiet, listening to this, and the only reason his rage doesn't rise is that the Rathmore is dead, numbered among those executed without pity. a lot of his problems had been answered with a swift death, much as he would have loved to torture them. at least they were handled, and that had to be enough.]
...I could break into their property and take your scales back, if he truly did nothing with them. Return them to you so you know exactly what's become of them. Better than having them sitting there until someone burns down the Rathmore mansion as retaliation.
I have a reputation to uphold. I cannot be seen committing petty acts of arson, not when I've worked to humiliate the Rathmores by gutting everything they possess.
That concern should extend to petty theft as well. I couldn't care less about my scales. It's the thought of those high-and-mighty nobles squandering what I gave them that turns my stomach. You shouldn't be so quick to commit crimes for your Bonded, Avenger.
[And he knows Dantes enough to understand his words won't carry much weight. That, regardless of what he says, the King of the Cavern will do as he pleases -- especially when it comes to right a wrong. Honestly. Such a trait belongs to a hero, yet he knows Dantes will deny such a title until his face turns blue.]
Someone like me has no use for vengeance. And if revenge is to be carried out, should it not be my own hand, Edmond Dantes? Shouldn't I, the victim, have the final say in such matters?
[that name makes him flinch, look away in the chair as he holds back the desire to snap at him. it's not his name today - it's not his name most days. he can only stand it sometimes, by his own choice, the weight of it tight against his throat.]
You make a point even this demon of vengeance cannot argue against. As your Bonded, I feel as though I must rise against harm done to you - but your word, in the end, is law.
[His keen eye doesn't miss that subtle reaction. He softens his tone.]
No, that isn't true. I am no king, no hero, no grand explorer of the unknown. All I am is a drunken writer who died well past his prime. My word should hold no such sway over you. I would be a piss-poor Master -- that is why I don't want the responsibilities of one. All I can do is whine and whinge, and hope that affects your decision-making in some fashion.
[He looks at him.]
It's as you said. We're partners in this Bond -- nothing more and nothing less.
It is because we're partners that you have that hold on me. Kings and heroes, their words affect me no more than the rain, for they are not the one I pledged to walk beside. It goes without saying to me that your thoughts color my own decisions, for we walk the path at the same time.
[finally, he looks back over.]
Your words fall to me not as a Master's would, but as the words of my equal.
[It shouldn't affect him so much to hear that, but Andersen has presented himself as someone little more than a tool, and a burdensome one at that, that to hear someone so powerful argue otherwise brings a light red to his cheeks. He clicks his tongue, pretends to remain unaffected.]
My word being law, however? I can't agree with you on that. Do you know how much garbage I spew out on the daily? If you took even an ounce of all I vomit out as a serious entreaty, you'd be considered a lunatic fallen from grace.
[okay, that gets him to laugh and straighten up a little.]
I speak of hell to you with regularity, I confess that I am a demon, and you worry I would be seen as fallen from grace? You're worrying about the wrong person - if anything, I'll have you dragged down to hell with me.
Oh, shut up. It's one thing to quack like a duck and another thing to be a duck. You may sound like a demon with all your bluster and theatrics, but you're too good of a man to be a true villain.
You doubt what I am at the core? You have seen me stalk the halls of Chaldea and rain fire and lightning upon our enemies with glee, you have witnessed me in the depths of that city's depravity, and you say I am not what I am?
[don't call him a good man. he's the shadow that lurks in the hearts of men and the incarnation of revenge, he's not anything approaching good.]
And did you not look after me the past month? Did you not stay your hand during the raid on the mansion? You could have acted in your own interest, could have acted on your desire for vengeance, but you decided to restrain yourself for the sake of the Mirrorbound as a whole. You saved our Master when you could have sacrificed her for your soul's freedom.
[but he says it with no bite in it, the equivalent of a cat flicking their tail in annoyance but unwilling to move or truly change anything. he has no more words, so he's trying to shut this down before Andersen can do something like try to call him a hero again. all of those things were to his benefit. it was only the appearance. and to leave Ritsuka there to die would have been playing into the King of Mages' hands - an abhorrent thought.
In my lifetime, I was a creature who posed as a man. Human ideals such as love, happiness, hope, sorrow, fear -- I understood such concepts as an artist but struggled to understand them as my fellows did. I felt too strongly and made a fool of myself many, many times because of this. I could not understand the people I lived among, though I could play the parts they bestowed upon me. From the moment I picked up the pen, I became enamored with the idea of monsters. With those who fail to be a part of society.
In short: a demon such as yourself only tantalized my incomplete author's heart. I wanted to spend time to observe and understand you because... I suppose I saw a bit of myself in you. Half-monster. Half-man. Something straddling the boundaries, without a true place to belong, like the little mermaid. I wanted to know your truth, and I can only tell you what I've seen.
[he looks at Andersen, and faintly (an echo in another room) there are varied emotions rifled through like discarded clothing, a great disturbance and then the settling down of it all. pulled back, controlled - restrained into something manageable and enclosed in his fist.
authors are not creatures he can trust easily. he knows them, though, and again and again he's drawn to them. returning to the scene of a crime, circling it and pressing back down on bone deep bruises as if hoping for another conclusion. but Andersen is not that man, not the one to cut him to pieces - someone who heard his rage and let him speak instead of recording his words.
half man, half monster? how literal this is with this form, but how it speaks to his true self as well. how he is the shell of something like a man, and inside the marked one, righteous and damned at the same time. society, something he holds at arm's length but yet watches so closely. he lives in the shadows of the boundary, for there anything can happen, and there despair cries out for one thread of hope.
he's staring, Dantes realizes too late. staring as if Andersen's eyes will fill with a cruel mirth and there be some lie to it, some trick that he misses. but it doesn't come, and he feels disarmed, caught unawares. folding his hands, he lets the silence stretch on until he can bear it no longer.]
And what will you do, when you find that truth?
[when what remains of Edmond Dantes after he was rendered into pieces to make one man rich at his expense again? a character who is all too aware of his unreality, of the shouldn't that clings to his existence? can he still trust in something that is less than whole?]
[It is impossible to miss the upheaval in their Bond, the aftershocks that shiver past. Too many emotions for it to be anything but the truth, and the rapidity with which Dantes yanks it all away only underscores how moved he'd been by his words. It brings him some pleasure to know this. Authors, after all, are peddlers of words. To move others by his speech alone is what he seeks, for nothing else about him is appetizing.
(He can't understand what Dantes is looking from him, for him to gaze into his eyes for so long.)
But that question -- it surprises Andersen. It's apparent by the way his brow raises, how he looks almost puzzled by the response. He cants his head, rubs the back of his neck.]
What is there to do? I only sell myself, Dantes. My interest in you... it's solely out of twisted sentimentality.
If you don't want to do anything with it, why do you look for it?
[he's still waiting, ready for it all to leave. for this all to reveal something else that he knew far too well - for something to be taken from him, or the promise that something will be.
sentiment only went so far. it couldn't be all. he'd learned that.]
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[whether that's a comfort or not depends on Andersen's mindset.]
Else I would have tracked you down sooner.
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For crying out loud! All their swagger about making a fortune off of us, and they don't even bother to put me on the stands! If they were going to mangle my legs, the least they could do was sell the product!
[He complains, because spinning the experience into a story changes it -- allows him to be more in control.]
Did I tell you about one of the Rathmore brats who kept pestering me? [He pitches his voice high and mocking.] "Oh, what beautiful scales, I best be careful with tearing them off." And what did he do with them in the end? Nothing, it seems like! Nothing at all! What a waste!
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...I could break into their property and take your scales back, if he truly did nothing with them. Return them to you so you know exactly what's become of them. Better than having them sitting there until someone burns down the Rathmore mansion as retaliation.
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[He knows your thirst for vengeance bro.]
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[cannot be seen.]
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That concern should extend to petty theft as well. I couldn't care less about my scales. It's the thought of those high-and-mighty nobles squandering what I gave them that turns my stomach. You shouldn't be so quick to commit crimes for your Bonded, Avenger.
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[he exhales and sinks down on the chair in the room, slouching into it.]
But fine. The day they place burns down is when you know they're gone for good.
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Is that what you think I want?
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[he knows you a little bit, Andersen.]
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Someone like me has no use for vengeance. And if revenge is to be carried out, should it not be my own hand, Edmond Dantes? Shouldn't I, the victim, have the final say in such matters?
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You make a point even this demon of vengeance cannot argue against. As your Bonded, I feel as though I must rise against harm done to you - but your word, in the end, is law.
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No, that isn't true. I am no king, no hero, no grand explorer of the unknown. All I am is a drunken writer who died well past his prime. My word should hold no such sway over you. I would be a piss-poor Master -- that is why I don't want the responsibilities of one. All I can do is whine and whinge, and hope that affects your decision-making in some fashion.
[He looks at him.]
It's as you said. We're partners in this Bond -- nothing more and nothing less.
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[finally, he looks back over.]
Your words fall to me not as a Master's would, but as the words of my equal.
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My word being law, however? I can't agree with you on that. Do you know how much garbage I spew out on the daily? If you took even an ounce of all I vomit out as a serious entreaty, you'd be considered a lunatic fallen from grace.
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I speak of hell to you with regularity, I confess that I am a demon, and you worry I would be seen as fallen from grace? You're worrying about the wrong person - if anything, I'll have you dragged down to hell with me.
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[don't call him a good man. he's the shadow that lurks in the hearts of men and the incarnation of revenge, he's not anything approaching good.]
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And did you not look after me the past month? Did you not stay your hand during the raid on the mansion? You could have acted in your own interest, could have acted on your desire for vengeance, but you decided to restrain yourself for the sake of the Mirrorbound as a whole. You saved our Master when you could have sacrificed her for your soul's freedom.
You are far kinder than you care to admit.
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[but he says it with no bite in it, the equivalent of a cat flicking their tail in annoyance but unwilling to move or truly change anything. he has no more words, so he's trying to shut this down before Andersen can do something like try to call him a hero again. all of those things were to his benefit. it was only the appearance. and to leave Ritsuka there to die would have been playing into the King of Mages' hands - an abhorrent thought.
Avengers are not kind.]
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Do you know why I sought you to begin with?
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[even if he rejected it, Andersen would still speak.]
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In short: a demon such as yourself only tantalized my incomplete author's heart. I wanted to spend time to observe and understand you because... I suppose I saw a bit of myself in you. Half-monster. Half-man. Something straddling the boundaries, without a true place to belong, like the little mermaid. I wanted to know your truth, and I can only tell you what I've seen.
I trust you more than anyone else in this world.
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authors are not creatures he can trust easily. he knows them, though, and again and again he's drawn to them. returning to the scene of a crime, circling it and pressing back down on bone deep bruises as if hoping for another conclusion. but Andersen is not that man, not the one to cut him to pieces - someone who heard his rage and let him speak instead of recording his words.
half man, half monster? how literal this is with this form, but how it speaks to his true self as well. how he is the shell of something like a man, and inside the marked one, righteous and damned at the same time. society, something he holds at arm's length but yet watches so closely. he lives in the shadows of the boundary, for there anything can happen, and there despair cries out for one thread of hope.
he's staring, Dantes realizes too late. staring as if Andersen's eyes will fill with a cruel mirth and there be some lie to it, some trick that he misses. but it doesn't come, and he feels disarmed, caught unawares. folding his hands, he lets the silence stretch on until he can bear it no longer.]
And what will you do, when you find that truth?
[when what remains of Edmond Dantes after he was rendered into pieces to make one man rich at his expense again? a character who is all too aware of his unreality, of the shouldn't that clings to his existence? can he still trust in something that is less than whole?]
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(He can't understand what Dantes is looking from him, for him to gaze into his eyes for so long.)
But that question -- it surprises Andersen. It's apparent by the way his brow raises, how he looks almost puzzled by the response. He cants his head, rubs the back of his neck.]
What is there to do? I only sell myself, Dantes. My interest in you... it's solely out of twisted sentimentality.
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[he's still waiting, ready for it all to leave. for this all to reveal something else that he knew far too well - for something to be taken from him, or the promise that something will be.
sentiment only went so far. it couldn't be all. he'd learned that.]
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